Hollywood Perfect

On Sunday, Matt and I had a photo session.  We are being featured in a major magazine come spring and so they hired a photographer and makeup/hair stylist to come.  (If the article is favorable, I’ll let you know the magazine. Otherwise, we’ll try to keep it hidden!)

It took the makeup artist 45 minutes to create my face (I tried not to take it personally when she commented on the dark circles under my eyes!).  She handed me the mirror and I was personally shocked when I looked into it.  There was not a flaw to be seen…nope, all the 400 lbs of foundation had taken care of that!

It really is true that each one of us can look “perfect” if we spend that much time and money and expertise towards that end.  I see how Hollywood stars can appear to be immaculate and perfect in complexion.  It is also just a painted face. That’s it.  It’s not who I am.  In fact, I was very READY to get that gunk off my face.

I didn’t like looking so created.  I like my dark circles under my eyes. They tell the story that I’m tired.  And I am for a very good reason…she’s rolling over and over to my right.  I don’t like feeling fake.

It was fun to play for a few hours.  But in the end, I was happy to wipe it all off, get out of my uncomfortable clothes and be mommy again.  I was struck with how there were times in my life that being “perfect” was certainly appealing and in fact, was a goal I strove towards.  I also realized how much my children have changed me.  It really is true that having children bring out all the selfishness we have inside.