About to be one!

Desta turns one Thursday. At least that’s the date we’ve been given by the courts to celebrate her birthday.  So we will.  It’s going to be a small family celebration but of course ice cream will be involved.

The date I’m really looking forward to celebrating is September 14, the day we first met our little bundle of joy.  To me, that date is more significant to me than her birthday.  It is the day I became her mommy, the day we became a family of five.

As I reflect on her birthday, my heart feels torn.  I have been thinking often of Desta’s birth mother, the woman who gave her up.  Why?  I will never know.  But if she is still alive, I wonder how often she thinks of the little baby girl she gave up.  I wonder if she knows that Desta is not only alive but healthy, thriving, filled with joy, a BLESSING to our family.  My heart wants her to know that.  I’d give anything to have one minute with her mother.  Not this side of life though…no, that is what eternity is for.

So we will celebrate our Desta girl’s little life, one year on this earth.  And we will rejoice with her, sing with her, smoosh lots of cake and ice cream in our faces with her.  We will also carry her tears for her birth mother for her, we will hold that pain in our hearts until it’s time to share them with her.  And we will be a blended family who has been given a HUGE gift, our Desta, our Joy!