I happened upon this post while perusing my blog roll this morning. I immediately got what she wrote. I feel the same.
The waiting part of adoption is far worse for me than the waiting I experienced when pregnant with our two children. See, when I was pregnant, I always knew the end was in sight. I had a date. Despite pregnancy complications, bed rest and preterm labor, I still had a timeline.
With this adoption, there is no timeline. Things that are supposed to take a month take three instead. I am at the government’s mercy regarding the processing of all our paperwork. Having been born and raised in Africa, I know have fragile things can be. I have to push away thoughts that once our US government processes everything, we could face some sort of political unrest and be back to square one.
Read the blog post. Write your comments.
I was born in Jos, Nigeria many years ago. I spent the next nineteen years living in Liberia, Kenya and Ethiopia. This blog began as a way to chronicle the journey to getting our third daughter through adoption. I have found that since I began writing, this blog has become a place for community, support and a safe place to share about my LIFE.
Thanks for linking to this post. It is so hard to articulate honest feelings during an adoption. The very nature of adoption and the choices involved call us to analyze the good and ugly in our hearts. And I know the fear of exposing those thoughts to others in private much less on a public blog. It’s easy for those outside the adoption world to misinterpret what is genuine, soul-searching for our motives. I’m thankful that my path to parenthood by adoption, forces me to seek God’s heart and mind… since my mind feels like such a muddle of opposing thoughts. Maybe that’s why this comment isn’t even as articulate as I’d like it to be. Simply said… thanks!
WOw, great post, thanks for sharing that cycle of waiting was good. I had a hard time with the whole thing for many reasons. Now I am waiting again, but now instead of saying “oh I can’t wait” until this or that, I say “I am so excited to see what God will do.” Even my verbage had to be checked.
kim fellow RLC blogger