It has been very exciting reading the blogs of families I’ve been following for the past several months get their referrals. The excitement, the months of waiting, the journey ahead…it is all such a gift and a blessing.
Amidst the excitement I feel a bit sorry for myself, a bit frustrated that we’ve been doing this for a year (and I know that for some of you, the wait has been almost three years!) and are just beginning our journey of waiting. It’s so darn hard to be patient.
So I’m trying to use this time for me. I know that when that baby girl comes to our family, things will CHANGE. No longer will I have lazy mornings to go for long runs with my friend Pam, an hour to download music from ITunes, to browse the Good Will at my leisure (which, by the way, is my new favorite place to shop), drink coffee and read the paper. No, instead I’ll be mothering a little girl who will need A LOT of my energy and time.
I’m not going to feel sorry for myself any longer. I know that the God has the perfect timing for our little girl and I’m excited to see when that time will be. While I wait, I will continue reorganizing, cleaning, shopping, scrap booking and being me…and prepare my heart and mind for when the time comes that will be CONSUMED by baby.
In another world, I have decided to run the Phoenix Rock and Roll Marathon January 2009. I am praying for no injuries, no stomach issues and a Boston Qualifying time. I find myself continuing to compare all my running/training to this adoption. I am preparing this ole body for a race that will be celebrated in Boston with our family in 2010. (Liz, watch out…we plan on all coming for that Boston Marathon!)
I was born in Jos, Nigeria many years ago. I spent the next nineteen years living in Liberia, Kenya and Ethiopia.
Oh, I can soo relate! (well to everything but the running…)
candy
Thanks for introducing yourself. I can totally understand your frustration. Their are people who have been waiting so long and ours happened so fast. I pray that you will get a referral soon!
I’m with candy! The process can be so long. One of the best pieces of advice that I ever got was just to keep living your life. Don’t stop and wait. And it seems like you are definitely doing that! Best of luck on the marathon!
Great analogy with the running! I often referenced a race during the loooong process. God’s timing is always best. I didn’t necessarily “feel” that all the time but certainly see it now.
Good luck with the training.