Am I ready?

I like school. I like the routine of getting up, getting dressed and getting the kids out the door. Don’t get me wrong, summer is a wonderful time of lazy days, fun trips, vacations and sun. But I miss the school year. It happens again next week. The kids head back to school. Caroline is there every day, all day. Tobin will be going three days a week (which I joke that because of our school holiday schedule, he’ll actually be attending two times/week).

I have big plans once the school year starts. I am cleaning my carpets, painting my trim, doing the nursery, sewing and running trails that I have read about all summer. BIG PLANS!

So I got to thinking about these big plans that I like. I like my selfish, ME time. What have I done? Am I ready for another baby? Am I ready to put ME aside for a bit and focus on another child? This is a big step. The reality of it has settled in.

I think I’m ready. I know that God has very definitely planned that this small child will join our family. And God also has such a sense of humor. What was I thinking when in college I prayed for patience? Seriously, of all the things I could have picked, I chose that one? So, I continue to learn and be tested. And I continue to prepare for this little girl to join us. In the meantime, I’m going to enjoy all the ME time I can get!