I feel overrun by stuff right now. Baby stuff everywhere. Toys and teething items everywhere. Big kids toys, puzzles, craft supplies. EVERYWHERE!
So I started with my closet. My entire family comes to town next week, including my older sister. I have some clothes that would look great on her, not so much on me. That was my motivation. Clean out the closet.
The more I cleaned, organized and sorted, the more disgusted with myself I got. Really, who needs four white shirts? How about three black tank tops? And undergarments! I was embarrassed that I have spent so much money and time getting these things. It’s too much. There were so many things that I got for a deal. There were many things I purchased because I thought I deserved something nice.
I’m not saying that I shouldn’t shop. But I did realize last night that I sometimes use things to help salve wounds that maybe a conversation would instead cure.
So I’m caught right now. I want to live simply. And I don’t want to live in guilt. Finding that balance is so hard.
I do know that next time I get the urge to shop, I will organize my closet instead.
I was born in Jos, Nigeria many years ago. I spent the next nineteen years living in Liberia, Kenya and Ethiopia.
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