Perspective

I have felt very frustrated with myself these past few weeks. I seem to be having issues with gratitude and thankfulness.

It seems around every corner I am reminded about how I am failing in this department. I have found so many things to be discontent about. I was actually in tears today when I discovered stains on some of Caroline’s baby clothes that I had been saving for our baby. Seriously crying over a few piddly clothes? What the heck was that all about?

Taking a break from the baby room organizing (I have been in in this nesting stage for almost 4 months now…you’d think I’d have finished with all the nesting I could do by now…nope!), I have been thinking.

Why am I so focused on what I can’t have? See, I focus on the endless process of this adoption. I focus on why I can’t have certain things, why I have to live in a budget, why I have to fill in the blank.

It all comes down to me. See, I have been really focused on me. My thoughts and feelings have turned inward. Instead of reflecting DAILY on two healthy kids, a warm and cozy home, a husband who loves me, a car that drives (and can get fixed in 3 hours when the battery dies), a body that can run, friends to go to happy hour with and so many other blessings, I have focused instead of all the things I DON’T HAVE.

So, now that I have actually put that down on “paper” I am responsible to make some changes. See, this is my little accountability blog. Stop the belly aching Melodie. Stop the whining. Seriously. Wake and smell those roses on your dining table that your sweet sister and kids bought you for your anniversary dang it.

Get some perspective!