Refocusing

I’ve been tired, so very tired, since running the Ascent 3 weeks ago. My hip has been hurting, all these aches and pains. It’s been a mentally challenging time for me.

I had spent the bulk of my summer, planning and training for the Ascent. I devoted so much time and energy into finishing the race. Now, I feel a bit let down.

Isn’t that how it is life? We spend so much time focused on accomplishing a goal, do that and then get a bit depressed. I wonder if that’s the way it will be after we get our daughter?

I know that I’ll be ecstatic to have her with us, instead of in another far off land. But all this waiting and praying, what will I do when we get to that point?

Today I ran a 5K. I had wanted to run a half marathon but decided to rest my hip. I enjoyed the run. I even managed to place…that was really fun. But it took a rearrangement of my expectations for the day.

That is how I am approaching the goal/depression/change of pace when the adoption is completed. It’s just a rearranging of expectations. It’s a mental challenge to do well with where I’m at, not where I want to be. That’s my new focus for the adoption. Rather than be overwhelmed with the “completion” of the adoption, I am shifting my focus to enjoying the new stage…a family of four to a family of five.